Bucket O' Bulletz

another day spent
another pocket bent
another life made
another track laid
another time out
another random shout
another capped song
another legend gone
another ripped assunder
another going under
….Off the top of my head….
opened a blog, shutting one down… C me
daddy plays tonight. pls touch museum exhibit 2moro. gma is ok. saw an old friend (bro. baldwin). hung out with gina. told a story. laughed. heard a story. cried. cryptic messages left in the breeze of eternity….
feeling somewhat cruddy, and happy, and sad, and frustrated, and jovial, and betrayed, and hungry.

4:34 PM – busy
and tired…and bored! can you believe that? anyway. i have a bunch of online friends now and i am still waiting on this house. God has it all in control i know. just pray for us ok ? baby is getting to big for his britches. i tell you, kids today!! anyhow just wanted to let you all know im doing well and my dad and my grandmother are doing great too… im excited for my dad. his career is launching. hubby and i are starting our outreaches and preaching shortly. i am so full i can barely stand it!!!

hey im bouta cut and paste and back order a few entries from myspace. i havent been faithful to LJ..i have been cheating … oh forgive me!!!! *tear* LOL anyway…i might do it today or within the next few days. here’s the one from today:
So I do God’s will. I do what He says. I try so hard to keep on His path. I do whatever it takes, even if I don’t really want to…because the plan of God is larger than my life….but what do I get in return? Harassed. Beaten by words. Kicked. For what? For doing God’s will. For sacrificing myself even in adversity. For laying my life down and picking up my cross. Why bother me? Why accuse me of hate? I do these things because I have so much love for my brother and my enemy that I cannot see them lost or confused. I love them so much, I want them to share in the same joy I have today. do they see it? No. They see me as a hater. They see me as a person who is just out to kill their way of life. They see me as some outsider who doesn’t really understand. In fact it is they who do not understand. I am driven by a force beyond myself. I am not
shy nor do I like to give up. I fear that I may have to let go and regroup…then come back stronger than ever…or not come back here at all. No matter where I go or what I do I will always be susceptible to the suffering of Christ. Why? Because that is the cup from which I drink. That is the cross that I bear. Controversy must occur for change to occur. How can peace abide where there never was war?
I am planning to pull out of here soon. Take my wares somewhere else. Why? I don’t really know. Maybe I’m not feeling up to the challenges. Maybe I’m a coward. Maybe I am just tired of fighting for anything right now. Maybe it’s because no matter who I have asked for help, they have not given me the dignity of any type of answer to my pleas.
You may not see me again for a while….maybe never again. I don’t know. But I know that when and if i do come back my inbox will still be full of hate mail. My friend requests will still be questioned. My group requests will still be fouled. Because I follow the call of my Savior to bring people from darkness into the light.

10:49 PM – woman (men should read this too)
Current mood: busy
Dont remember where i got this from but here:
From God: When I created the heavens and the earth, I spoke them into being. When I created man, I formed him and breathed life into his nostrils. But you, woman, I fashioned after I breathed the breath of life into man because your nostrils are too delicate. I allowed a deep sleep to come over him so I could patiently and perfectly fashion you. Man was put to sleep so that he could not interfere with the creativity. From one bone, I fashioned you. I chose the bone that protects man’s life. chose the rib, which protects his heart and lungs and supports him, as you are meant to do. Around this one bone, I shaped you….I modeled you. I created you perfectly and beautifully. Your characteristics are as the rib, strong yet delicate and fragile. You provide protection for the most delicate organ in man, his heart. His heart is the center of his being; his lungs hold the breath of life. The rib cage will allow itself to be broken before it will allow damage to the heart. Support man as the rib cage suppo
rts the body. You were not taken from his feet, to be under him, nor were you taken from his head, to be above him. You were taken from his side, to stand beside him and be held close to his side. You are my perfect angel…..You are my beautiful little girl. You have grown to be a splendid woman of excellence, and my eyes fill when I see the virtues in your heart. Your eyes……don’t change them. Your lips — how lovely when they part in prayer. Your nose, so perfect in form. Your hands so gentle to touch. I ve caressed your face in your deepest sleep. I’ve held your heart close to mine. Of all that lives and breathes, you are most like me. Adam walked with me in the cool of the day, yet he was lonely. He could not see me or touch me. He could only feel me. So everything I wanted Adam to share and experience with me, I fashioned in you; my holiness, my strength, my purity, my love, my protection and support. You are special because you are an extension of me. Man represents my image, woman my emotions. Together, you represent the totality of God. So man…treat woman well. Love her, respect her, for she is fragile.

10:53 PM – never again….
Never again will I confess weakness for “I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.” (Phil. 4:13) “The people that know their God shall be strong and do exploits.” (Dan. 11:32)
Never again will I confess lack, for “My God shall supply all of my needs according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.” (Phi. 4:19)
Never again will I confess fear, for “God hath not given me the spirit of fear, but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” (2 Tim. 1:7)
Never again will I confess doubt and lack of faith, for “God hath given to every man the measure of faith.” (Rom. 12:3)
Never again will I confess supremacy of Satan over my life, for “Greater is He that is within me than he that is in the world.” (1 John 4:4)
Never again will I confess discontentment because “I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.” (Phil. 4:11)
Never again will I confess insecurity because “When thou liest down, thou shalt not be afraid; Yea, thou shalt lie down, and thy sle
ep shall be sweet…for the Lord shall be thy confidence, and shall keep thy foot from being taken.” (Prov. 3:24-26)
Never again will I confess fear of the future, “But as it is written, eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither hath entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love Him, but God hath revealed them unto us by His Spirit.” (1 Cor. 2:9-10)
Never again will I confess defeat, for “God always causeth me to triumph in Christ Jesus.” (2 Cor. 2:14)
Never again will I confess frustration, for “Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee.” (Isa. 26:3)
Never again will I confess lack of wisdom, for “Christ Jesus is made unto me wisdom from God.” (1 Cor. 1:30)
Never again will I confess failure because, “Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him that loved us.” (Rom. 8:37)
Never again will I confess worries and frustrations, for I am “Casting all my cares upon Him who careth for me.” (1 Peter 5:7) In Christ I am “care-free”.
Never again will I confess bondage, for “Where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty.” (2 Cor. 3:17) My body is the temple of the Holy Spirit.
Never again will I confess troubles because Jesus said, “In the world ye shall have tribulation
: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33)
Never again will I confess condemnation, for “There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus.” (Rom. 8:1) I am in Christ; therefore, I am free from condemnation.
Never again will I confess loneliness, Jesus said, “Lo, I am with you alway, even unto the end of the world.” (Matt. 28:20) and “I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee” (Heb.13:5)
Never again will I confess unworthiness because “He hath made Him to be sin for us, who knew no sin, that we might be made the righteousness of God in Him.” (2 Cor. 5:21)
Never again will I confess persecution, for “If God be for us, who can be against us?” (Rom. 8:31)
Never again will I confess the dominion of sin over my life because, “The Law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus hath made me free from the law of Sin and death.” (Rom. 8:2),

“seven trends of highly defective dating”
1. Dating leads to intimacy not necessarily to commitment.
- What is ‘Defrauding”?
- It is arousing a hunger we cannot righteously satisfy—promising something we cannot or will not provide.
2. Dating tends to skip the ‘friendship’ stage of a relationship.
- Relationships built on physical attraction and romantic feeling will last only as long as the feelings last.
3. Dating often mistakes a physical relationship for love.
- Our culture uses the words ‘love’ and ‘sex’ interchangeably
4. Dating often isolates a couple from other vital relationships.
- In ‘Passion and Purity’ Elizabeth Elliot says, “Unless a man is prepared to ask a woman to be his wife, what right has he to claim her exclusive attention? Unless she has been asked to marry him, why would a sensible woman promise any man her exclusive attention?”
- PR 15:22 Plans fai
l for lack of counsel, but with many advisers they succeed.
5. Dating, in many cases, distracts young adults from their primary responsibility of preparing for the future.
- Don’t let temporary distractions take you away from God’s will of preparation for the future.
6. Dating can cause discontentment with God’s gift of singleness.
- You have a gift right now that anyone married does not have!
- Are you using your singleness to serve the in complete freedom and abandon?
7. Dating creates an artificial environment for evaluating another person’s character.
- No one is fully ‘real’ on a date
- Group outings are the best way to know how someone REALLY is
“two things to look for”
1. Character: What you are when no one is looking and what you would do if you knew nobody would ever find out!
§ How a person relates to God
§ How a person relates to others: Authorities, Parents, Opposite Sex, Close Friends
§ Personal Disciplines: How they use time, How they handle money, How they take care of their body.
2. Attitude: A godly attitude involves God-centered, Bible-based thinking—working to view ourselves, others, and our
circumstances from God’s perspective.
o An attitude of willing obedience to God
o An attitude of humility
o An attitude of industriousness
o An attitude of contentment and hopefulness
“a solid marriage”
1. Remember your relational responsibilities.
o Your relationship with the person your interested in
o Your relationships with those around you
o Your relationship with God
2. Seek a deeper friendship first
o Don’t rush into romance but have patience and self-control to wait
3. Watch, Wait and Pray
Taking it Past the Friendship Stage
o God’s Word
o You’re ready for marriage
o The approval and support of your parents or guardians, Christian mentors, and godly Christian friends
o God’s Peace
4. Define your relationship’s purpose: pursuing marriage
5. Honor her parents
6. Test and build the relationship in real-life settings (family settings, church involvement, life passions and principles)
7. Reserve Passion for Marriage
o Elisabeth Elliot said “Keep your hands off and your clothes on.”
o Seek emotional purity
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Grocery dating
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you,” declares the LORD.
PR 18:22 He who finds a wife finds what is good and receives favor from the LORD.
Grocery Dating Principle .1
o Never Grocery Shop When You’re Hungry
When you’re hungry just about anything tastes good.
The only thing that can satisfy your hunger is a relationship with God.
Grocery Dating Principle .2
o Always Pick The Right Cart
4 Bad Wheels
1. Dating is the Best thing that you should do and have to do
2. If you are single something is wrong with you
3. The answer to loneliness is found in dating and/or marriage
4. You will not be complete until you are with your Romeo or Juliet
4 Good W
heels
1. Allow your parents (authorities) to have an active part in your romantic relationships to protect and guide you with Godly wisdom.
Ephesians 6:1-4 Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right. 2 “Honor your father and mother”—which is the first commandment with a promise— 3 “that it may go well with you and that you may enjoy long life on the earth.” 4 Fathers, do not exasperate your children; instead, bring them up in the training and instruction of the Lord.
2. Limit the number of relationships to a minimum and only develop them with the intent of marriage in mind.
3. Raise the standard of purity and holiness by refraining from physical contact.
Statistics prove that churched teenagers are just as sexually active as teens in the world!
Stay physically pure by keeping yourself emotionally pure.
§ Guard your heart
§ Don’t entertain romantic thoughts or fantasies
§ Don’t joke about relationships
§ Stay out of other’s business
§ Stay away from romantic materials (novels, magazines)
§ Keep intimate details to yourself
§ Don’t focus prayer on one person
§ Do not flirt
§ Flee when picking up romantic vibes
4. Submit yourself to God’s will, for not every good choice is God’s choice.
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11:14 AM – yay for friends
i just got to talk to aggy finally on yahoo after such a long wait !!! she is totally awesome. we had a great time talking till my hubby came home, then i had to go. i bet we would have talked for 3 more hours otherwise!!! the time difference between here and there is 5 hours, so it is hard for us to catch each other on. i was in such shock to actually finally talk to her that i couldnt think of anything to say. but we got over it and had a great convo.
other than that, all my christmas shopping is done and we are not in debt. had the company christmas party for hubbys job last night and we looked fantabulous. we were the best dressed ones and im not bragging…just stating the truth. we thought it was an all dress up like we are going to prom evening, but i guess not. there were about 4 other people in the group of 20 or so who actually tried to dress up really nice other than us. one person asked us “where’s the ball”…when you see the pick you will know why LOL. i was happy though cuz hubby made sure i was pretty as a picture. he stayed in the stores until he found shoes a
dress and a cover up that made me look really nice:

12:55 PM – QUIZ 7 deadly sins
7 deadly sins and you….
WRATH
1. Who did you last get angry with?
my husbands boss
2. What is your weapon of choice?
anything within reach that is heavy
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?
yes
4. How about of the same sex?
yes
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you?
nyy husband
6. What is your pet peeve?
spelling errors
7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?
no
SLOTH
1. What is one thing you’re supposed to do daily that you haven’t done in a long time?
shower lol
2. What is the latest you’ve ever woken up?
1pm
3. Name a person you’ve been meaning to contact, but haven’t:
pick a cousin, any cousin
4. What is the last lame excuse you made?
anything that starts with “see, what had happened was…”
5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through.
yes.
6. When was the last time you got a good workout
in?
when was the last time i was running after my son? o yeah today.
7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today?
none
GLUTTONY
1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice?
grande carmel frappacino from starbucks
2. Meat eaters:
try not to…makes me wretch
3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you’ve had in one sitting/outing/event?
an entire bottle of vodka or 6 smirnoff ice
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company?
never
5. Do you have an issue with your weight?
only if i gain any
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods?
Sweets
7. Have you ever looked at a small house pet or child and thought, “LUNCH!”?
once…
LUST
1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)?
more than 20
2. How many people have seen YOU naked?
more than 20
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a man/woman?
unfortunately
4. Have you “done it” w/someone you barely know?
yes
5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice?
arms
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute?
no
7. Have you ever had to get tested f
or an STD or pregnancy?
yes and yes
GREED
1. How many credit cards do you own?
none..hubby has them all
2. What’s your guilty pleasure store?
anything christopher lowell
3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it?
i wouldnt be on here to talk about it.
5. Would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks?
how boring???
6. Have you ever stolen anything?
yes
7. How many MP3s are on your hard drive?
over 2000
PRIDE
1. What one thing have you done that you’re most proud of?
have a baby and he’s still alive!
2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of?
graduate
3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life?
everything i can think of.
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place?
depends on what it is im coming in second place for.
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors?
yep…singing comp
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score?
no
7. What did you do today that you’re proud of?
got dressed
ENVY
1. What item (or person) of your friend’s would you most want to have for your own?
blue eyes **brenna**
2. Who would you want to go on “Trading Spaces” with?
gina
3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be?
her… **glare**
4. Have you ever been cheated on?
yep
5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own?
yep
6. What trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? the ability to not get furious
7. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin?
gluttony