Bucket O' Bulletz

dang computers…both of them decided to have fits. i had to totally format my main computer. hundreds of songs, movies, and PICTURES OF MY BABY gone…. i only got a chance to back up about half of them.
my other computer is still having fits. i am coaxing it into working without me having to format it, too.
im bouta say screw it and do it anyway.
baby driving me crazy with his disobedience. make me wanna shoot myself in the head, since any form of even touchign your child is forbidden by DYPS unless in private with an open hand on the bottom which will not end up leaving a red mark. wtf?
he went to sleep on time tonight YAY so i get time to …
FOLD FRIGGIN LAUNDRY AND DO DISHES
joy and rapture
i might not even fold the laundry. im too tired.
i think that ppl believe that i do nothing all day except sit on my rear and make faces at myself in the mirror. i hate when ppl decide they are just gonna take over your day and tell you what they need done… or get offended because you wont do it after all their plotting and planning for YOUR life.
doing my best
not to tell someone off…
and yet im still not as aggravated as i was before
freakin amazing.
in other news
baby is potty training really well. he looooves sitting on the potty. i think the best part for him is running around naked screaming “pee! pee!” LOL
my grandmother is rather ill, bouncing from the nursing home to the hospital. please keep her in your hearts. she is suffering so much and i just wish that she could get better or go with God.
my husband’s grandfather passed away. he was in puerto rico and we never got a chance to go see him before this happened. please keep them all in prayer. it’s a depressing time for them.

Things you would tell your 16 year old self…
1. Don’t spend the money on a car, buy a house in another 2 years.
2. Don’t even go there. Save yourself, it will be worth the wait.
3. Don’t work at the casino.
4. Learn how to play the guitar NOW while you are still home with your daddy.
5. Go to Maine for school. It isn’t worth the trouble of staying here.
The Survey
1) What stickers do you have on your car, if any?
Support our Troops and a Jesus Fish
3) What do you hear right now?
Was silence now it’s children who just got home.
4) If you could drink anything right this second, what would it be?
A frappucino on ice.
5) Does anything hurt on your body right now?
I’m not at liberty to say…
6) If _________ died, you would laugh and spit on their grave?
Yes with great relish….
7) What’s your job position called?
Stay at home mom, reverend, PPL Associate What size ring do you wear?
6
9) Do you own a picture phone?
no, a digital camera
10) What’s your bf/gf’s birthday?
husband: April 6th
11) What’s your Mom’s favorite band/musician?
I dunno. Everything oldies.
12) What’s your Dad’s favorite band/musician?
Himself. haha
13) What was your elementary school’s mascot?
a bumblebee.
14) What’s your favorite bottled water?
Whatever I have a coupon for…except for Dasani
15) What’s the next concert/show you’re going to and when?
Giampietro Park July 30th Gospelfest I’m playing a whole hour there!
16) What were you doing at 9 pm last night?
Praying I could go to sleep and stop cleaning.
17) What’s your favorite Starbucks drink?
Caramel Frappucino
18) Do you exercise as much as you should?
Does running after a 2 1/2 year old count?
19) Did you attend your High School prom?
Yes. I wore a red and black satin dress with stole that my mommy made me
20) Would you give your bf/gf a second chance if they cheated on you?
No.

i saw kevin loatman. anyone remember him? he’s taller, and more clean cut. still wierd LOL. now all i have to do is find john davidson and i will be satisfied. i hear he’s at winfields again…hmmm
also, the time on my computer is never right, so i am actually not posting this at the time it says, but the day is correct. nice. the b Button is sticking on my laptop… i wonder why.
anyway i got tagged by so now i will do that thingy.
Post five things you enjoy, even when no one around you wants to go out and play. What lowers your stress/blood pressure/anxiety level? Post it to your journal, and then tag 5 friends and ask them to post it to theirs.
1. Playing my guitar.
2. Reading a book outside in the breeze while sitting on the porch.
3. Making Digital art.
4. doing… stuff… with my husband.
5. watching old movies/musicals and pretending to be in them LOL.
I TAG…

and if i missed being tagged i substitute
ha so i tagged 6 ppl instead ! LOL

I havent felt peace like this since the day I rededicated my life to God. it’s amazing how much torment can go away through a change in living arrangements. *sipping a maitai thinking how good life is* well, at least that’s what i’m doing in my mind.
business is good.
life is good.
but
my son is driving me insane…
beyond the brink of insane…
it’s all i can do not to pull out all my hair…
he’s breaking out with eczema junk again.
if anyone has any elidel (sp?) i would truly appreciate it
as insurance doesnt cover it
and the hydrocortisone is making his skin blotch.
im scared it will be permanent
i saw what it can do to people’s skin.
it’s not reversible.
he’s potty training pretty well.
he loves going potty like a “big boy”.
i am hoping that he gets totally trained before he grows out of #4 size diapers.
i am so not willing to buy #5 size for the same price with less diapers.
and
i’m praying that my grandmother is ok. she’s in the hospital again after th
ey took her out and put her in a nursing home. this is the 2nd time this has happened. freakin great.
also
i’m hoping that when everything gets settled here that i don’t have a reason to be aggravated every day. living with friends and their children can be a hassle, but i’m hoping that it doesn’t become one. i hope that we don’t lose our friendship. i hope i don’t get on their nerves too much either. these are the closest people i have to me right now and i really love them. i don’t want anything to be ruined because i’m a weirdo or that their quirks irk me or my husband. i hope that my son can get along with their kids and that i dont get aggravated by so many children in one place. the last hope is a long shot, but hey, prayer works.
in closing,
i dont have much to say in closing…haha. i think i said it all already.
The business
ok im really done now.
byeeeeeeez

i am so glad you are all my friends love you much. bless you all. i am officially back in the ‘ville. hip hip hoor..ach *cough cough* …
went to graduation. welcome to the beginning of the end of your lives class of 2005. five parents decided to beat up the transvestite graduate right after the ceremony. how nice. what a great statement of the world today. man you gotta love a country where you can beat up people who don’t line up with your view of the universe. fantastic. ‘
yeah so i got to see a bunch of kids i have known since they were way shorter than i am who are now way taller. its amazing how old one can feel at a graduation. made me think back to 97. ah the great memo…oww oww brain cramp.
yah. really interesting how much they grow in just a few years. some i didnt even recognize till i saw their parents.
i advised my sisters to marry guys who dont have parents…. yeah it’s that deep.
anywayz business is good. everyone 18 and over should know about it. Click. You may or may not be interested.
It’s a great way for you to get more money in your pockets and to protect your future and your family. Let me know if you are interested and what you think.