Bucket O' Bulletz

“Can’t Keep”
I wanna shake
I wanna wind out
I wanna leave
This mind and shout
I’ve lived
All this life
Like an ocean
In disguise
I don’t live for
Ever
You can’t keep
Me here
I wanna race
With the sundown
I want a last breath
Forgive
Every being
The bad feelings
It’s just me
I won’t wait
For answers
You can’t keep
Me here
I wanna rise
And say goodnight
Wanna take
A look on the other side
I’ve lived
All those lives
It’s been wonder
Full at night
I will live for
Ever
You can’t keep
Me here

Dear Student,

Welcome to Stonecliffe College Online and the proud 40 year history of Colorado Technical University! You will soon realize that SCO is a special place. We want you to take advantage of every opportunity offered to help you expand your horizons and fulfill your dreams.

The mission of Stonecliffe College Online is to provide you with an opportunity to continue your education and advance your career, by offering an online program that complements your current lifestyle and schedule. We are dedicated to accomplishing this goal by partnering with you and providing you with a world-class online education. If you have a passion for learning, we can help make your aspirations come true.

Our aim at SCO is to provide you with a career-oriented education, by teaching applied, real-world, state-of-the-practice programs in selected business and criminal justice areas of study. At SCO, we believe that higher education must encompass a holistic approach to education, which views you as central to the learning process. Our goal is to remove barriers of time, space, and geo
graphy that may have limited your access to higher education.

Now is the time for you to “Point your career upward.” The faculty, staff, and administration are here to assist and guide you. Your success is our success!

Sincerely,
Wallace Pond, Ph.D.
Chancellor
Stonecliffe College Online an
Academic Division of CTU

My friends are the best and they have allowed me to reach my $50 goal so I applied last night to the college. I have a mere day or two to wait for approval…
:::In other news:::
My mind has been writing stories without my approval. Reading Margaret George in her perfection has allowed the wellspring of my literary fountain to reopen. I hadn’t been able to write a flowing paragraph in such a long time, I forgot how to do so. I am happy that Brenna allowed me the privilege of sharing in this author’s history. With Margaret George flashing before my eyes and Fiona Apple seeping into my ears, I do believe that I will finally be able to finish my own biography, and maybe get some more art from the tomb of my mind.
Eloquent ecstasy is what I long to become. I have been struggling with writing for quite some time. I have not had the energy nor passion to devote to such a daunting duty. I refuse to write prose dribble. I cannot say that I am the most fluid writer, but I know that I can do better than the staccato thoughts and vanishing dreams that I have been used to sputtering from the end of my pen onto an overly wor
thy piece of paper. I can see that page now, cringing at the bulk of what was violating its face.
I pray that is now remedied and I will have some lucid thought with meaning being poured out onto a forgiving canvas.
xposted to my mindsay

I am trying to go to school again. This time for an associates degree in business management.
Obstacle: I need the $50 application fee…
Solution: Prayer and working diligently online to see if I can make the dough by Monday which is the deadline. When did I find out that was the deadline so I can get into school for May 17th? Yesterday. How much do I have as of now? Around $20.
Obstacle: When I get accepted I have to deal with financial aid and see if they will give me enough money NOT in loans to cover the 30 month $21000 bill.
Solution: More prayer because I first have to come up with the application money and then I can worry about that…but the prayer for them covering the bill after I sacrifice my hard earned $50 is crucial.
So what is left for me to do? I want to do this for my family more than anything. I know that this education will put me in the position to elevate our living standards to far more than comfortable. All the classes are online so I can do them while I am at home. The baby is pretty self sufficient and homeschooling is going well. Im not planning on being pre
gnant again anytime, so this is the ideal moment for me to do this.
So if you could please pray with me that God’s will be done so I can move on I would appreciate it. Thank you.

I am in pain. This migraine keeps acting like it’s gone then popping back up again. I have had it on and off for the last 2 days. Everything is making me sensitive and I don’t want to do anything. When I bend over to pick up something I get dizzy. When I stand up I feel like I’m going to swoon. My house is pretty much clean, but there is oh so much more that I could be doing other than sitting here praying my headache away. I even took a nap and thought that did the trick, but NO.
My husband was playing around earlier and grabbed my left arm the wrong way, so now it’s been hurting ever since this afternoon!!! It doesn’t take much to make my arm start hurting.
Other than that we had a good day. We went to the park and it was so hot I felt all the moisture leave my body as soon as I left the car. Kid had fun. That’s all that matters.
Im watching an expose on ANTM. What a shame. The big lipped heifer *used to be a judge Janice* said that in order to be a model you have to take your clothes off at some point and those with religious beliefs against that should know it before they come on the sc
ene. How ridiculous is that? YOU DONT HAVE TO BE NUDE TO BE A MODEL. Idiots.
Im also watching my text pop back and forth as I type because the new system is autosaving my draft every 2 seconds. Nice feature but a bit annoying. Good with the bad I guess.
What else…umm..I have been contemplating moving my son’s homeschool blog from blogger.com to homeschoolblogger.com, but the address is just sooooo long! instead of http://eternalearning.blogspot.com it’s http://homeschoolblogger.com/eternalearning. Maybe it’s the same length, I dunno. Maybe it’s aesthetics of it all. Maybe I will just get a free hosted website of my own and do it on there. Maybe not.
Im rethinking just buying a core for the baby until later on…like 1st grade core curriculum cuz I dont want to buy every book they offer in the curriculum package. Toes for Tia is a bit raw for a preschooler in my opinion. I will look into it more, but in the mean time I am awaiting my Boca coffee which will arrive on friday and my book “Raising your Spirited Child” which should be here by next Wednesday. The coffee is my present to me for my birthday …4 -8oz packages of gourmet coffee. If anyone finds any exotic tea or chai latte they think I might want, please send it to me! Im in love with exotic teas and coffees.

FIONA APPLE ON TOUR 2006!
6/19/2006 Hard Rock Hotel and Casino Las Vegas, NV
6/20/2006 Dodge Theatre Phoenix, AZ
6/21/2006 Pechanga Resort & Casino Temecula, California
6/23/2006 SDSU Open Air Theatre San Diego, CA*
6/24/2006 Greek Theater Los Angeles, CA*
6/25/2006 County Bowl Santa Barbara, CA*
6/27/2006 Mountain Winery Saratoga, CA
6/29/2006 Chronicle Pavilion Concord, CA*
6/30/2006 Mountain Winery Saratoga, CA
7/01/2006 Les Schwab Amphitheater Bend, OR*
7/03/2006 Chateau Ste Michelle Seattle, WA*
7/05/2006 City Lights Pavilion Denver, CO*
7/07/2006 Nokia Theatre Dallas, TX*
7/08/2006 The Backyard Austin, TX*
7/09/2006 Cynthia Woods Mitchell Pavilion Houston, TX*
7/12/2006 Verizon Wireless Music Center Indianapolis, IN*
7/13/2006 Charter One Pavilion Chicago, IL*
7/14/2006 Northrop Auditorium Minneapolis, MN*
7/21/2006 Bank of America Pavilion Boston, MA*
7/22/2006 Nikon at Jones Beach Theatre Wantagh, NY*
7/24/2006 Mohegan Sun Uncaseville, CT*%
0D
7/26/2006 Central Park Summerstage New York City, NY*
7/28/2006 Tweeter Center at the Waterfront Philadelphia, PA*
7/29/2006 Borgata Atlantic City, NJ*
7/31/2006 Filene Center/Wolf Trap Vienna, VA*
8/01/2006 Verizon Wireless Amphitheatre Virginia Beach, VA
8/02/2006 Chastain Atlanta, GA
8/04/2006 Ford Amphitheatre Tampa, FL
8/05/2006 Verizon Wireless Amphitheatre Charlotte, NC
8/06/2006 Koka Booth Amphitheatre Cary, NC
8/08/2006 Chevrolet Amphitheatre Pittsburgh, PA
8/09/2006 DTE Energy Music Amphitheatre Detroit, MI
8/10/2006 The Plain Dealer Pavilion Cleveland, OH
* With Damien Rice

There are probobaly about 15 things I could be doing right now, but I am sitting here writing a blog entry. I treated myself for my birthday with 4 bags of gourmet coffee. 2 with caffeine and 2 without. They were less than $8 total cuz I got this killer online sale from bocajava.com !!! I have seen about $60 worth of stuff I want from there. They have the most awesome flavors of coffee, tea, and cocoa…all of which I LOVE and I want a full tea service soon so I just gotta keep working at the internet money and my home business so that I can get it soon Smiley.
So I am drowning in procrastination, or just plain drainedness…yes i made that word up. I’m tired. I have a full day tomorrow running around getting things done and making sure the baby gets his needs met. I have a list. Wanna see? Probably not but here it is:
* Pay for my car registration
* Pay the gas bill
* Open a bank account
* Pay the insurance
* Go shopping for the rest of the groceries
* Get the rest of the stuff I need for Easter
* Make jello egg jigg
lers
* Finish decorating the house
* Clean
* Wash clothes
Well …add that to the list of the “normal routine” and see what you come up with. I’m beat just thinking about it.

I am taking donations toward my son’s homeschool fund…all funds are going into my paypal account then to a high yield savings when I get enough to matter. I will be buying his $300+ Pre K package in February of next year.