Bucket O' Bulletz

She sent me an email earlier that said:

It is better to be liked for the true you,
 than to be loved for who people think you are.

Well that is a mouthful, isn’t it? I have been a person that cruises through life upon rough seas. I have always been one to hide who it is that I am at the heart, because I knew that no one could really handle it. I knew that if I ever really “showed up”, all hades would break loose.

I was right.

And now I am in therapy.

Doing what?

Trying to fix the me that people would see if I decided to let the true me loose on the world. Apparently that me is pretty screwed up. My life story might tell you a little as to WHY. I will spare you the story right now, though. I am open about my past, as it no longer hurts me. It’s just the residue from the past that has my entire life under a haze. If you listen to my podcast, you will get more insight as to why (if you care to).

It’s not easy to like myself most of the time. It’s not easy to find worth for myself. I guess that’s what my next podcast will be about.

Tags: self+worth, podcast, wisdom, true+self

You know, the funny thing about today? It was the most dragging-est day I have had in a while. It was like, no matter what time it felt like it was, it was about 45 minutes BEHIND my brain. For instance, I thought that it was noon, but it was only 11:15! UGH. It didn’t stop there. I was in traffic for what felt like an hour, but was only 45 minutes. I thought it was 8:30 but it was only 7:45. It’s just been a very weird day for time. Other people were having the same phenomena. The moon isn’t even full yet! Now I am patiently awaiting 10pm which seems to be taking FOREVER to get here *sigh*. I have a lot of things to do in a little bit of time, but if it keeps dragging like it is, I have plenty of time!