Bucket O' Bulletz

We are at ground zero for packing and getting everything out of this house.

Tomorrow we pick up the truck and start the long journey to our new home. It is exciting and scary. Thank you to our church who went above and beyond to help us with this move and our ministry. We love every single one of you! You are all way too awesome! May God abundantly bless each and every one who sowed into us this past year and a half at church.

It’s funny to roll by the places you once lived. I have done it on a number of occasions after being gone for a while. We went to our apartment complex today. We have only been gone for six months, but everything is pretty different. There are some crazy new things going on like mock Naples Fl custom doors being put on various random apartments. We tried to get in contact with a few people we used to talk with, but it wasn’t as easy as it seems it would be. *sigh* I am really going to miss NJ.

We are at a week and a half and still counting down on to the day we move. A nice long stay in destin florida hotels might do the trick. We might actually be able to go to Puerto Rico for two weeks in October, spending our 8 year anniversary on the beautiful island and its lovely beaches. We will see if that pans out. For now, all I can do is dream.

What would Grandma do?

I am missing her so terribly right now in the midst of all that is going on. I used to be able to pick up my phone any time of day or night and call her. Then it went to only being able to visit her, but I could still write her letters and she would always answer. She used to send me little encouraging notes of love and God’s word just because. How I could use that right now!

I can’t talk to the one person who would totally listen and understand what I am going through, who would pray with me and give me that comfort that I miss. She always studied the Word of God and so she always had an answer for everything even if it were just to wait on God. I miss her every single day since she passed away nearly 4 years ago. I have not returned to her grave since the day her body was laid to rest. Her grave gives me no comfort, only reminds me that she is no longer physically with us.

I am going through major changes in my life, and I know she would be proud of what I am doing, but it still hurts that she isn’t here to share it with me. She left me the legacy of faith and the gift of her spirit. I now have the chance to show that to the world, but I would much rather her be here to help me through than watching from paradise.

The magnitude of what we are about to do is finally truly starting to set in. I am getting ridiculously stressed out. It’s like I feel that I am on the cusp of a nervous breakdown but I know that I have to hold it together. The house needs to be packed within 2 weeks, my single album needs to be done in the same. We have to rent a truck and take all this stuff up to the storage spot in the Bronx. We have to get rid of our extra car. We have to get everything situated with the landlord. It’s a wonder I don’t need any good acne treatments from all the stress! I am totally buggin’ right now and I still have mad stuff to finish for the album and the websites, too. *sigh* God give me strength, time, and grace! amen

I am so behind on blogging it makes no sense! ALL my blogs are suffering right now.

Why?

Well, we have been moving our in laws out of their home to a new one, fixing our own home in the Bronx, and ministering nearly every weekend. The weekdays are filled with things to do and we have not even really started packing. We are at T minus 2 weeks to get out of here, and it’s just crazy to me that we are still not even close to being ready.

We have to get a storage unit out in the Bx so we can put EVERYTHING we own in there till the apartment is completed. Praying that it is only for a month so we don’t have to all live on top of each other in one room for very long.

My husband has been working SOOOO hard on getting our new home ready for the move, as well as all the things he does in general… I would like to reward him for it. Maybe a new XBox or the 360 version. He would probably enjoy it immensely. I have tried to get him one in the past, but alas, it didn’t work out. One day I will find the right deal and have the money in my pocket so that I can do what I want to show him how much we really appreciate all he has done and all he does now.