, I am here with yet another season of crying while watching American Idol. Last year was my final year to be able to try out if I wanted to, but I keep asking myself WHY would I want to do it? Is it just for my ego? For pride? For fame and riches?

Why would I WANT to be so famous? I don’t want my family torn apart by the media or my child scrutinized for being my son. I don’t want our lives lived in the public forum like that.

AND THE PRESSURE!!! AUGH!!!

Looming deadlines, public opinion, tour dates, physical wear & tear on your body, having to look perfect/be perfect every stinking moment! Waxing, hair appointments, high heeled shoes!!!

No no no no no.

I am happy to be independent, with no deadlines save the ones God imposes. I am happy to have my own means of making music without having to please anyone but God. I am content with my son living a semi-sheltered life where he can learn about the world safely without paparazzi snapping his eyeballs silly.

So I really don’t understand why I still cry over American Idol. I mean, a heartfelt song or gut wrenching story…ok…but just to sit and bawl while people sing?

Uh,
no.

This ends tonight.

My husband is currently looking for a contractors/construction job in New York. It isn’t just going to be a job, but this is to set him up for his careers dream. He wants to once again own a construction business. It is not easy finding a job in New York, though. SO many people are out of work, vying for the same jobs. Even with his years of experience and excellent work, it is not an easy feat.

I must admit, we went in with a few preconceived notions. Husby thought that the main character was going to be Elijah the prophet. I thought that the movie would be about the book of Elijah the prophet, like an untold epistle.

We were both wrong.
Extremely wrong.

The movie takes place after the apocalypse and is based upon biblical truths. There are elements that remind me of these movies:

“Castaway”
“Resident Evil”
“I am Legend”
“Blade”

If you like any of those movies, imagine them all wrapped into one plot. There was an unexpected twist to the story which really made you want to stand up and cheer.

We watched it in a theater with very few people, but they were animated. When crazy things happened, we all gasped.

Denzel was impeccable. One of the best movies he has made.

I am so excited! My sister will soon be handing out her own college graduation announcements!!! Her pictures are gorgeous. I can hardly wait to attend my very own sister’s college graduation. She has worked so hard and diligently pursued her degree. She has gone over, through, and around so many obstacles. I am beyond proud of her.

We really have to get back to fitness. We have to figure out where there is a Y that we can get to. Right now we don’t have the space for commercial fitness equipment style things…not even our smaller style equipment fits where we are now. I really miss losing weight and feeling good about my body. I am trying. I do yoga every morning for a few minutes. Hopefully soon we will get back to working out and being more healthy than we are now.

I have never lived in a place where sirens go off around you every five to ten minutes. This city is far too full of accidents, shootings, and deaths. The emergency medical assistance people are forever busy out here. I do not really think I will ever get used to the whirring of sirens. Every time I hear one, I just pray that God be with those who are being rescued and the ones doing the rescuing.

I would really like to find a job that allows me to work from home and make more money. I have been looking into data entry but how do you know the places are legit? Then there are all the admin jobs, but most of them are in office jobs. I can’t be away from home to work with the other commitments that we have, such as homeschooling our son. It’s just not possible. Any thoughts, ideas, or suggestions?