posted by Sun T. on Sep 12
I have to get on with my blogging as usual today, though I don’t feel like it. There are things I want to blog about, but they all pale in comparison to the issue at hand. I guess I have to just trust God and believe that these boys will be sentenced fairly. I am not saying that they should get off for assault, but their sentences were wayyyy out there. Fair justice is all I ask.
Last night I was watching Biggest Loser. I tend to not watch that as much as Celebrity Fit Club, but this time I am drawn in. The possibility that the black team will come out as the dark horse and defeat the other two teams just makes me want to watch, root for them, encourage them in my thoughts. What they set out to do seems impossible, but it is attainable through their determination and will power.
I am searching for my own determination right now. I have so much that needs to be done physically, mentally, spiritually…but I have no desire or will to do everything that entails. I want to lose at least ten pounds. I want my flat pretty stomach back. I will even settle for flatter than it is now. I don’t have to look like I did when I was 16. I will settle for what I looked like 3 years ago. I want to burn my sage every day and commune with God on the side porch. I want to finish my book and start the next one. I want so much. I just really need to get on the ball and DO it.
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posted by Sun T. on Jul 17
I don’t know what I am going to do with myself. I really want to do something about my state of mind. I haven’t been blogging as much. I haven’t been talking to a lot of people offline. I just don’t know what to do. I guess this is the deepest depressive state that I have endured since being a teenager. It is like, the deepest blackest hole you can imagine. You can hardly see the hand in front of your face. Where is the light?
posted by Sun T. on Jun 24
I feel like that’s what I’m itching to do. I can’t pinpoint the anxiousness, but it’s totally there. It’s like no matter what I do, it’s not enough of something to make everything right again. I want to yell and scream at someone for something, but who? and for what? I just feel like I am about to explode for no reason. UGH UGH UGH.
posted by Sun T. on Apr 21
Last I left you we were finally done getting the new car.
SO we dropped the child and the blue car off at my mother’s house and went out on the town to shop in the gold one. First stop, tires. The car had 2 bald, one nearly bald, and one nearly halfway decent tire. BJs tire center was slooooow so we decided to go the new NTB across the street. They were great, even though it still took a while. I was glad to have a Pen to write down my thoughts about the situation..more about that later. They even were able to break the locks off the front tires *hence why there were bald tires there in the first place, I guess*.
I also got to get some strawberry smelly trees for the car, then off we went to buy CLOTHES!!!
This is where it all went downhill. IF you thought I might have been aggravated before, buying clothes honestly screwed me up. I was in tears by the end of that journey. I can’t believe how HUGE I am compared to what I was before… and this ain’t no baby fat. Read the rest of this entry »
posted by Sun T. on Apr 17
Jane Chin is adept at bringing heartfelt feeling to a carnival. You have to read this edition about Emotional Invalidation, Brand named drugs or Generics, Worrying, and a whole lot more. I love her carnivals and have participated in the past. Deb is featured as a contributor in this edition. Enjoy.
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posted by Sun T. on Apr 4
I am hard pressed for thoughts of my own today. My mind is so preoccupied with my mental condition. I have a sort of block there right now. When I get like this, I try to read from other great authors so that I can be inspired to write something myself. Recently I have been enamored by Virginia Woolf. I like Blue & Green the best so far. I keep going back to read it and turn it over in my mind. Her pieces challenge me to think a little harder about what I want to say when I say it.
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posted by Sun T. on Feb 24
Virgin Mobile is sucking the fun out of having a prepaid phone! Seriously. I go to their website to buy a replacement phone for hubby who lost his the night of my sister’’s party, right? Right. Well I try TWICE to buy the phone and TWICE they put a hold on my bank account for the amount while denying that my card is valid. How can it not be valid if you can put a charge hold on my account??? The first time I went through this I got them to fax the bank and within the hour my money was back in my account. This time they keep losing my friggin paperwork, not making notes on my account about it… and then they friggin BLOCK ME from calling anymore. I swear! They had to have because they hung up on me the 4th time I called in 3 days to get this resolved and when I call back there isn”t a recording, a ring, NOTHING. Just silence. … ..
I”m about to call my bank and tell them what to do with that charge and Virgin Mobile what to do with their phones…
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posted by Sun T. on Feb 14
My friend Marcus tagged me to talk about 3 things that I am thankful for, so I will do this now. Thanks Marcus LOL
NUMBER ONE
I am thankful for my health. Without it, I couldn’t take care of my son, husband, and dog like I do. I also wouldn’t be able to sit here for hours and make mula so I can spend it on my favorite people *including myself*.
NUMBER TWO
I am thankful for my friends. If I didn’t have you all, I would have gone insane long ago. That is not an understatement.
NUMBER THREE
I am thankful for my home. It has been a long time coming. I really am glad that we get to have an apartment all to ourselves far from distraction and complications. We have had a better time here than anywhere since we have been married. We are finally getting back to having fun together and it’s all because we have this lovely home.
I thank God for everything, but in everything I give thanks.
Tagging:
Jeanette, Army Mom, and Bonita In Pink
