So I decided to get some more things for my hair, because I am switching a few things in my regimen. My hair has never been so soft!

I am still using the Profectiv Strengthener, but have cut down a bit on the use of the Wave Noveau moisturizer. I bought some Olive Oil spray sheen, which is working really well for my hair and a defrizzing gel with no alcoholic content. Joyful stuff! It doesn’t gag my hair at all. I can use it to straighten with the flat iron, blow dry (ut I don’t do that), or just wear natural. Works like a charm.

I even got rained on, and my hair barely puffed. I am having a ball with my hair right now. The short spots are long enough to hold in braids, so I am doing that some days. Just glad to be able to stick with this natural thing.

My buddy Dr. Victorine aka idadi has posted the interview we did on the IM Saturday morning. I was the star of her recent Journey Feature for natural hair. I was more than honored to get in on this blog. Make sure you check out my story. She had some really good questions that made me think!

I am just not in the mood. His “watch what I can do”s are resonating off the insides of my brain like the painful screeching of someone rubbing a balloon. My chest hurts. My hand just stopped hurting. It’s humid in here despite the air conditioner being on and the fan blowing. I am on the brink of a major migraine…

And YES
I am PMSing…

what of it???

Okay so I have a serious problem. I do not have “typical” black hair. What does that mean? Well, even if it is picked and teased it won’t stand up straight. It does not like twists. It doesn’t lock, even if you roll around on a bed with it out, it just breaks. I don’t have tight little curls. I have the beginning of a curl that turns into a wavy curl as it gets longer, hence the reason I cannot fro my hair. It takes to the flat iron VERY well and always comes out lovely when I use it.

I like my curls, but it is going to take a LONG time for my hair to get long enough for me to even consider having it out in all its truly natural *glory*. I have 3 lengths of hair right now, so it’s definitely not a good look. I am resolved not to do any more drastic cuts on it.

Products: Dove Intensive Care (dark blue), Wave Nuveau Moisturizing Lotion (left over from when I had Wave Nuveau in my hair), hair strengthener and leave in conditioner.

I took myself on a little excursion today, dating myself. I got myself all dressed up, bought myself a mocha frapp, then went and got Bread because today is Bread Day! After that, I put myself through the torture that is the post office on Saturday. On the way back, I stopped and got myself a lunch special from the Chinese food store and utilized the wait time to buy some juice from next door. Now I am home, ready to enjoy my relaxing few hours before the Man returns and I have to go into wife mode again. YAY for treating yourself!

I just measured the short parts of my hair in the back. From over a month ago, it has grown 1.25 inches bringing me to about 2 inches of unprocessed hair in that area. It’s a huge step, since it was all broken off before. It is quickly closing in on the 5 inches of hair I have in places where it has not broken off. I can wear it out now, and no one notices the length change unless they are in the business of professional hair care.

I have been vigilant about wrapping my hair in some sort of kerchief or head scarf every night as well as keeping my hair from brushing my clothes in the back. The other day, I let it hang down a bit too far and I could hear the strands snapping off as they rubbed against my jacket. I quickly remedied that issue. Soon, I will have to find another hairstyle to keep it off my shirts as it grows down past the nape of my neck.

My hair? Oh it’s growing just fine. I have finally figured out the “magic formula” for allowing my hair the rest time it needs in order to rejuvenate from chemical hell. My hair is getting longer, stronger, and more brilliant every week…at least, that’s when I notice it. I am sure things are happening every day. I am using some really good smelling pink serum that is for promoting growth and strength while minimizing breakage. Fantastic stuff, so fantastic that my son decided to dip his hand in and use some for his own hair since he wants it to grow back in now LOL

Shot out to my sister in the tresses, Dr. Victorine. Check her link out on the sidebar.

Tags: black+hair+care, going+natural

She sent me an email earlier that said:

It is better to be liked for the true you,
 than to be loved for who people think you are.

Well that is a mouthful, isn’t it? I have been a person that cruises through life upon rough seas. I have always been one to hide who it is that I am at the heart, because I knew that no one could really handle it. I knew that if I ever really “showed up”, all hades would break loose.

I was right.

And now I am in therapy.

Doing what?

Trying to fix the me that people would see if I decided to let the true me loose on the world. Apparently that me is pretty screwed up. My life story might tell you a little as to WHY. I will spare you the story right now, though. I am open about my past, as it no longer hurts me. It’s just the residue from the past that has my entire life under a haze. If you listen to my podcast, you will get more insight as to why (if you care to).

It’s not easy to like myself most of the time. It’s not easy to find worth for myself. I guess that’s what my next podcast will be about.

Tags: self+worth, podcast, wisdom, true+self